What happens when you don’t take action

Well fuck. It all started with an innocent visit to the doctors. I had scheduled a bone density scan because after 5 years of no menstrual cycle due to my past of restrictive eating I was curious to see how my bones were doing, but when I heard the words “Em, you have osteoporosis”, my…

WIAW + Casual Sunday Nothingness

With me trying to cut back from my social media use, I have been posting less every day eats on Instagram for the sake of my own mental sanity. I love being able to support as many people as I can but it can be really draining always feeling like I “need” to post. That’s…

WIAW: Vacation Eats 

I really had no time to post on Instagram all the yummy food I ate over my trip- mainly because it would have been awkward but I like to take social media breaks and focus on my family. I decided to take pictures the last day of my visit when I wasn’t around extended family…

Q&A 12/17/15

I’m currently typing this in my bed because my energy has been so low and my body just wants to sleep! But I will take this time to get something done and answer those questions you all had for me 😉 The only ones I am not going to answer are the ones that I…

Update on life lately! 12/14/15

Hey guys! Long time no post. Well let me tell you, college definitely kicked my booty this semester. I really went in with a good attitude and was in a great place in my recovery. I had just reached a minimum healthy weight and planned to maintain it and just focus on school and my…

Should You Count Calories To Gain Weight?

I have gotten this question more often than I eat peanut butter… which is A LOT. The answer is: it depends on the person. Some people find that it helps them if they don’t get normal hunger cues or if they have a busy schedule they need to work around. For other people, they prefer…

Coming Out About Your ED

Eating disorders are made up of several traits. One of those traits is being secretive and not wanting others to know about it. It wants you all to itself and allows no one in. I remember years ago when I didn’t even think I had an eating disorder and lashed out at the doctors when…

WIAW: First week in college

  Hey guys! I am going to show you all a day in the life at college. Last week was very laid back and we had a lot of meetings to attend.   I started off my morning with an english muffin with cream cheese, microwaved egg whites and raspberries and banana. I sat in the lounge…

Gaining More Than Pounds

Recovering is not just about the weight. Recovering is fighting for your actual life back as well. Fighting a nasty disorder brings out a whole new person. You might not be the same person you were before but it’s because you have gone through a life changing situation. Nothing in the world wrong with that-…

Get Angry

It’s time to get angry. Get angry at your eating disorder. Stop yelling at your parents and loved ones for trying to help. Stop blaming and feeling sorry for yourself. Stop isolating because you think you have no friends. Stop acting like there’s no way out. Get angry. Fight the evil disorder that is taking…

Extreme Hunger

When I first started refeeding my body with an adequate amount of nutrition (3000 calories a day), I felt extremely full a lot of the time. However, there were times whether between meals or right before a meal that I felt STARVING. It was a feeling of if I didn’t get food soon I would…

WIAW: Home Alone

My parents had left for a long weekend to a wedding and I was in charge of keeping the house in shape. I spent a lot of time with my doggy (Bailey) and 2 cats. They are very entertaining! I’m going to share with you all what I ate the first day on my own….