Well, it’s about time. After 2 1/2 years of having my recovery into health account, I’m done. And here’s why:
It’s a big waste of my time. Yes, at one point is was very helpful to me, but now it just seems like a chore. I love to help people recover and give them motivation, but I cannot heal someone, they have to do the work for themselves. And I cannot spend my entire life trying to get others to recover and repeat what I have preached over and over and over. It makes my brain hurt.
Comparison. Not only do I find myself somewhat comparing my lifestyle to others, but people do it to me. And that’s when it becomes unhelpful. I don’t need to hear about how someone walked 20,000 steps that day or THEIR fitness goals when I need to just be focusing on my own. I don’t need to constantly expose myself to others bodies 24/7…. it just gets old. And while I’m sitting here eating a big bowl of oatmeal w/ banana, chocolate, peanut butter and milk… someone else is eating just a bar for a snack. Yeah, cool.
I would like to eat my ugly but delicious food without taking a damn picture of it. I mean come on, some of the best foods seem to either be unphotogenic, sloppy, or brown. I’m tired of trying to find “good lighting” and such for a picture while my food gets cold. No. Not fair to me.
Hearing other people’s problems all day long really becomes like a broken record, especially when it’s the same person with the same problem over and over again. Just so you know, CHANGE doesn’t happen unless you do.
People try to act like they know me but they don’t. I get people commenting about my food and saying it’s “super clean” or “super unhealthy”. Um okay then. I guess you didn’t see that slice of pizza I scarfed down after work but didn’t take a picture of. And I guess that second person doesn’t realize what balance eating is. Because I assure you I don’t eat pints of ice cream every single day nor do I shove my face with only carrot sticks. I do not need other people to tell me how to live my life when I am living it perfectly fine. No restrictions, no dieting, no weight loss, no weight gain, but HEALTHY.
I just want to move on. I thought at one point it would be worth it to keep that account for free things or special offers, but it’s just not worth it anymore. I just want to be happy and eat good food and stay out with my friends and not put even more pressure on myself for keeping up with a big account.
Maybe I just need a break or maybe this is a final goodbye, I haven’t decided yet. But for now, I will keep my account open so people can see how I got myself healthy and so there’s a link to my blog.
As for my blog, I think I will definitely keep it. I don’t always get to post about everything I would like to because I have a busy schedule now but I want people to find it and get something out of it hopefully. I like to talk about things on here almost like I’m writing in a notebook. Plus, its where I keep some old recipes 🙂