WIAW: First week in college

  Hey guys! I am going to show you all a day in the life at college. Last week was very laid back and we had a lot of meetings to attend. 

 I started off my morning with an english muffin with cream cheese, microwaved egg whites and raspberries and banana. I sat in the lounge so I wouldn’t wake up my roommate. 

 I have been trying a lot of the places around campus besides the dining hall. This place called JuiceBlendz is awesome! I got a turkey club with a strawberry mamba smoothie. I think the smoothie has yogurt, strawberries, honey and something else I don’t really remember…. I took this before sitting outside with the girls on my floor 🙂

 We had a small break in between meetings so I went back and had a quick snack of peanut butter crackers. My roommate gave them to me since she has a whole box and this is before I went grocery shopping. 
For dins I grabbed a burrito bowl with a friend. It had chicken, cheese,  beans and a bunch of other stuff on a bed of brown rice! Pretty good I must say but I’m disappointed that guac isn’t apart of the meal plan and would have been extra.  My eating schedule has definitely been different every single day. Being flexible is very important in college and it’s a good skill to have for life in general. I don’t remember how late it was but I had a chocolate cookie from Subway.  

College is… different

College is different. It was a scary transition because I am so used to making my own meals, not being on the go all the time and had time to myself.
College is the complete opposite and let me tell you, I am not used to staying up late. I literally have big bags under my eyes by the end of the day so I don’t stay up all night like most people.

One thing I’m learning is that meaning of food has changed. It no longer is something I spend so much of my day trying to perfect. It’s something that keeps me alive no matter what it is. I cannot afford to lose weight in college. I have no intentions to. What I do know is what my body needs. I am walking miles a day, I NEED soo much fuel right now. I carry snacks with me at all times and I’m not shy when filling up my plate in the dining hall.

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Even if I may not be completely comfortable with my food choices, I don’t think about it as much because I just don’t have the time. If I need to eat poptarts at 10:00 pm, then I do. If that means adding fries to my meal, I do it. I have worked too hard to let my progress fall down the drain.

Not saying it’s always easy when I see girls after hours of school just eat a small salad. I have learned to push it aside because my body has different needs than theirs. One thing that is coming back for me is normal hunger cues which I am thrilled about because it makes it easier to eat. There was a point I was absolutely never hungry.

This is changing me for the better. I know if I never got this opportunity, I would not have grown or broke the bad habits I had for myself.

Please go break those rules you have. This week has truly shown me that life is SO MUCH MORE THAN FOOD AND EXERCISE. Get to know people! They won’t judge you like you think they will. Being social is one of the best self esteem boosters.

I am ready for whatever life will throw at me.

Gaining More Than Pounds

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Recovering is not just about the weight. Recovering is fighting for your actual life back as well. Fighting a nasty disorder brings out a whole new person. You might not be the same person you were before but it’s because you have gone through a life changing situation. Nothing in the world wrong with that- take what you know and use that knowledge to make you a better person.

Awesome Recovery Perks:

  • Strong, shiny hair
  • Being able to have a genuine smile and laugh
  • Curves are hot, Bones are not!
  • A face full of life and color
  • Double D’s and juicy doubles (lol….. sadly not for me)
  • Not having to set the house to 80 F to feel warm
  • Better sleep and sleeping In
  • My period! (almost there)
  • Not spending hours of your day worrying about food and working out
  • Developing relationships
  • Loving your body
  • Spontaneous meals
  • DESSERT
  • Walking up the stairs without feeling like you are dying
  • Shaving arm pits because they were too concave before 
  • You heal so much faster!
  • You are able to tan- being nutrient and vitamin deficient from unproper nutrition makes it impossible to get a nice tan (vitamin D)
  • Creativity. I totally lost the will to get creative and do productive things that made me happy
  • Motivation. I don’t always feel motivated but when I am, I am more able to do the task right.
  • Shopping is…. FUN? YES! Body confidence is tricky but you know how amazing it is to try on clothes and it actually fits instead of making you feel more sad. Empowering.

I know there are far more spectacular things I probably didn’t mention but these are definitely positive perks I have discovered by sticking to recovery. It wasn’t easy at all, but nothing ever truly worth it is a piece of cake (pun intended). It can be difficult to remember all the amazing things you are gaining when it seems like the weight is the only thing but I promise you it’s not! You are becoming more and more beautiful the closer you get to healthy. ❤

Getting Settled In College!

Wow. College is so unbelievably different than what I was used to at home. To sum it up: a LOT more walking, never having alone time, and most meals are out.

Not going to lie, the first day I felt like I was going to pass out from exhaustion. Moving was stressful and so hot. After finally getting my room the way I wanted I felt a little better.

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IMG_5068These are some views of my new casa. Do you spy the minion? 😉 I had to get a double step stool because I am really short and the bed is meant for bigfoot. My mini fridge has a mini freezer that I shall fill with ice cream and shtuff. The blue and black cabinets are basically my pantry with various nut butters, protein bars and powders, granola bars, popcorn, crackers and more assortment of goodies. I love my space 🙂 You can see more pictures on my Instragram (@emmy.vazquez) for some more sneak peaks of my college journey.

My roommate is very nice and I didn’t show her side of the room for privacy reasons. I have met several really sweet people and keep meeting more every day. As I write this I just had dinner at the dining hall and have some spare time before a hall meeting. This week is just for freshmen to get settled and to meet people while getting to know the campus as well. My dorms are at the bottom of the huge hill of the campus. My classes are at the very top… Super.

Tomorrow I am planning on seeing what groups or clubs I can join since I won’t be doing Greek life. Volunteering and maybe an intramural sport are what I am looking at.

Many more mini updates are to come 🙂

Questions:

For those that have gone to college, what clubs did you enjoy?

Was it hard making relationships?

The Big 18

Caution: Baby Emmy pictures below.

 18 years old. I can’t believe I am finally entering adulthood. Such a scary yet thrilling thought to me. Birthdays aren’t like they used to be. I used to wake up the morning of my birthday and be the most excited little girl ever. I would run down stairs and start planning the whole day of fun activities. The party, friends. presents, food, it was all so magical. Now it just seems like another day to be honest. However, I know it’s much much more than that. This is MY day. The only day of the year I have for me and I definitely should be celebrating.

I am using this time to reflect on my past 18 years of life. Do I have regrets? Maybe some… but I am not going to sit here and dwell on the things I “could’ve done”, when I should be thinking about all the things I WILL do with the rest of my life. There are so many glorious things I can do with my life now and I intend to explore some of them.  It’s interesting because I really don’t recall when my innocent childhood came to an end. Ever since I was in middle school I have been told that I am very mature for my age. I noticed that. I stopped finding the inappropriate jokes at school funny, I walked away from drama instead of starting it, I wasn’t interested in getting drunk at parties, I preferred having close-knit friends and long conversations with people rather than a large group of friends. I was okay with that. Making friends has always been harder for me because of my maturity. Don’t get me wrong, I love having fun! I really don’t consider myself a boring person because I love to do fun things, laugh, be spontaneous…. but in different ways than most teens do. Also have to put some blame on my eating disorder for some of it. Moving along though…..

I am starting fresh. Not going to let my insecurities or ignorant people get in the way of my happiness again. I’m going to let my college experience make up for all the things I missed out on in high school. I am be happy again. I know it is possible.

For my birthday this year me and my family are going out to dinner in Nashville and getting dessert somewhere! I love not precisely planning everything so we will just see where the night takes us, Birthdays arent about presents or food anymore, it’s about celebrating another year of life on this world and being with the ones that love you unconditionally.

Happy Birthday to me 🙂

Peanut Butter Pumpkin Spice Bread 

  Ingredients:

  • 2 cups flour (oat or all purpose)
  • 1/2 cup peanut protein
  • 4 oz unsweetened applesauce
  • 1 1/3 cup pumpkin purée
  • 2 large eggs
  • 1/3 cup agave or honey 
  • 1 tsp cinnamon 
  • 1 tsp pumpkin pie spice
  • 1 1/2 tsp baking powder
  • Optional: more sweetener 
  • White chocolate chips

The recipe is simple. First combine all the dry ingredients and mix well. Then add the wet and mix until there are no clumps. Then stir in the chocolate chips. Top with more chocolate chips for extra fun 😉

Spray a loaf pan really well and pour in the batter. I had some better left over so I made a mini loaf too! 

Bake at 375 F for about 30-35 minutes until a toothpick comes out clean. Let cool at least 30 minutes before cutting. Enjoy!  This bread is very moist because of the pumpkin so be careful not to over cook it! The white chocolate chips are basically a MUST.

No peanut protein? Try subbing 1/3-1/2 C peanut butter or vanilla protein powder. Can’t guarantee the flavor but it should turn out fine 🙂

Get Angry

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It’s time to get angry.

Get angry at your eating disorder.

Stop yelling at your parents and loved ones for trying to help.

Stop blaming and feeling sorry for yourself.

Stop isolating because you think you have no friends.

Stop acting like there’s no way out.

Get angry. Fight the evil disorder that is taking your life away. Get so mad for all the times it kept you from being happy.

You have the control now, you really do.

Stop dragging your tired body out for runs when all it wants is rest. Sleep in.

Eat the damn cookie, eat peanut butter out of the jar, go for a third slice of pizza. Make IT angry.

You can spend years trying to hold on to it, or you can choose to destroy what has been destroying you. Choice is yours and I hope you get angry.

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Banana Mugcake 

When it comes to baking, you need a really moist ingredient such as pumpkin, yogurt, applesauce for it to come out nice and moist. I hate trying out recipes and it coming out so dry you can’t swallow. Well, I haven’t used banana as much which is why I gave it a shot. This recipe is easy and doesn’t require and protein powder.

Ingredients:

  • 1/2 cup oat flour
  • 2 T powdered peanut protein
  • 1/2 mashed banana, 1/2 for topping
  • 6 T egg whites
  • 2 T milk
  • 1 tsp baking powder
  • Dash of cinnamon
  • 2 packets stevia

First combine the dry ingredients together. Then mix in the wet. Stir together until there aren’t any clumps.

Make sure the bowl is a pretty good size or else it might overflow. Microwave for 1:30-2 minutes.

I topped mine with banana, peanut butter cookie dough, nuts n more toffee crunch peanut butter, and chocolate shavings!

Link Love 8/9/15

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It’s time for some link love because I found some very inspiring links this week that I am dying to share! This week is a bit different than most Link Loves because I found mostly recovery and health topics. Hope you enjoy!

The Problem With “Strong Not Skinny” – A Piece Of Misa

Marissa has nailed this topic beyond words. If you are struggling with exercising while trying to gain weight, you NEED to read this! She has several great posts 🙂

To Change Your Life, You Must Change Your Life, Not Your Body – Hayley Full Of Life

Not kidding, one of the most powerful posts I have read ❤

How To Stop Measuring Foods – Em Recovers

I know if you have gone through an eating disorder, you more than likely have struggled with always measuring things. It’s time to stop. 

Food Rules – Running With Spoons

This isnt necessarily a new post but it for sure is a great one! Amanda is very inspiring to me 🙂

Finding Balance With Food And Exercise – Beauty And Bananas

This is an all around wonderful blog and Stephanie has so many great things to say!

Chickpea Cookie Dough

Cookie dough is one of my favorite things ever. I like it as a flavor for bars, in icecream, and just to eat! That’s why I whipped up this yummy treat for my crazy sweet tooth 😉

What you’ll need:

  • 1 cup chickpeas
  • 1/4 cup vanilla almond milk
  • 1/4 cup powdered peanut protein**
  • 1 tsp vanilla extract
  • Dash of cinnamon
  • Dark chocolate chips

Blend chickpeas and almond milk in a food processor until smooth. Then add the rest of the ingredients and mix with a spoon. That’s it!

**If you don’t want a peanut flavor just sub out for vanilla protein powder. I love this as a topper for anything or just to eat when I have a sweet tooth 🙂